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#1 User is offline   bura 

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Posted 22 October 2005 - 10:35 PM

Got a problem? Need a helping hand; someone who knows what you're going through? Well, I probably won't be much help but I'm sure someone out there will be able to sympathise. Come here if you need to get something of your chest about suicide or depression, or you want some information on it.

Feel free to contact any of the people below if you need someone to talk to:

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Posted 25 October 2005 - 10:47 PM

I've been in a depression since about 6th or 7th grade or so...maybe earlier but I doubt it. I used a be such a happy little boy until things just began to change. My story is WAY TOO LONG to write out so I'm not going to do it. There have been moments in my life where I find a glimpse of happiness, yet I always seem to come back to this feeling of sadness. Being alone sucks but I deal with it. Having to deal with memories that can't be relived is a pain too... I don't know where I;m going in my life anymore and it seems like I'm always drifting or wandering, not really caring about anything permenantly since everything will always only be temporary... Other than Love and some of the other mysterious of life... Those are said to be eternal. Even now I sit here and think back to those days when I was able to enjoy life with the ones I cared for and vice versa. I can't do that anymore since I am out of High School now and just working for the time being... I plan to go to college a little later... I still dont' know what I want to major in yet...maybe I could go to one of those Technical College's and major in a certain field like game design or something...or artwork/writing...and then once I'm done with that... She'll be waiting for me here... I wonder if that would be for the best in order to cope with these feelings? I hope that I'll be able to figure things out before my life fades away... It just seems so different now... Not like how it used to be... Fun and enjoyable... Now it's only serious and stuff... I want to have the fun I never had in my childhood due to my limitations... I bet she wants to do the same... Maybe if she'll let me... I can make that happen some day. I really do want to see her smiling face again... I wanted to ask about another topic...but I'll post about that in another thread. Sorry for bothering you with my writing... I'll post from time to time to keep you all updated about me I suppose... All I can say right now if I don't know how I'm doing... I feel lost and alone once again even after fixing things... I know what I'm missing...more like who I'm missing... I wish I could hear her voice just once more... I'm not talking about Goggles... It's someone who had made a big impact upon my life when I was truely alone with no friends to talk to or be with. I...know I love her...but what can I do about that now at this point in time? It'll all be a waste to be beaten now... If I can't handle what's happening now then how will I be strong enough to save her or be her Angel from her dreams? I won't give up until it's all over... I'd rather die than be like one of those crazy f*ckers you see riding on the buses late at night or just a crazy ass mofo who has lost his sanity. I can't let anyone see me like that if I end up losing it... Will the sadness and pain get to me? Will the suffering be too much to bear? I'll keep fighting it...until I can't anymore... I just don't want to be alone...but what choice do I have now but to be alone. We're all so far away... even if we're able to talk to one another or see each other from time to time...we're all so...distant.. not in distance...but in...another manner... I'll...be back later... I hope I don't feel so lost once I return. See everyone later...
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Posted 26 October 2005 - 12:44 AM

Well, as depressing as this sounds, cheer up Lacer because you will always have us to come and talk to.

Umm, I'm not good with advice but you're what 17, 18? Don't get down that you feel alone now because you're still young, you still have plenty of time to fall in love with someone and quite frankly your chances of the relationship working are better when you're a bit older because that way there's less chance that you'll get the old "I'm not ready for real commitment".

If you feel lost, my health booklet says that one way to boost your self esteem is to set small, realistic goals and reward yourself when you achieve them. Maybe one day you can say "I'm going to try and think only positive thoughts" or something.

Something I've noticed is that I always feel down when I've got nothing to do, so keep yourself busy and/or entertained. Distract yourself so that you don't have time to think. And if worse comes to worse, go some place where you can socialise other than at school. Like, join a club or something.

Eh, I'm probably not much help.
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Posted 26 October 2005 - 01:40 AM

That would help if I was still in school... About the socialize and join a club or something.. I have a job and I'm planning to go back to school in a bit... But I don't know. The stuff about the self-esteem wouldn't help someone like me who is so deep or far into the depression that something so simple or small like that won't work... Believe me... They've tried lots of things on me and I've tried lots of things as well... Thanks for trying bura, but thost basic concepts won't be able to help someone as deep into this as me. My self esteem has never really been all that great... I've always been searching for a place to belong yet usually end up drifting or going off on my own again one way or another... Once I find her... maybe not now but in the future... Maybe...just maybe...I can truely live a happy life... Right now it's not happening though... It's not like I'm not trying, I'm trying my best to be happy... but it's just not possible with the feelings I always feel and the pain and suffering that I feel everyday... I just drew a picture...a nice one... Of me and Desi... I'll...post it up I suppose...once I recharge the batteries to the DigiCam... I...there's... a lot of feelings, emotions, heart, soul...put into this drawing... If you look at it close enough... Maybe you'll be able to feel it... I'll try to post it tonight... if not when i get the chance...probably later on today *1:40am now, so yeah, later today* I wonder if I should go to see a doctor again? Maybe...I should... I don't know...my mom's always bugging me about it... We don't get along very well anyway...cause of my stepdad always being anal about stuff...complaining about stupid things that shouldn't matter that much... My head hurts...maybe it's cause I'm over doing it... Pushing myself too hard to stay up way past my normal limits... I feel like sleeping yet I'm forcing myself to stay up... I must draw more...I haven't drawn in awhile... The only time when I can draw good it seems..is when I put my heart and soul into my finger tips, brushing the paper with my pencil and creating my dreams...memories...wishes...happiness... So long..until next time...
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Posted 26 October 2005 - 03:29 AM

You have to start with small steps and build up on them Lacer, if you're that far into depression you need to start with them even more. You can't just expect to able to take giant leaps of progress if you're that bad. You have to try and not just give up or you'll never be helped.
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Posted 30 October 2005 - 06:53 PM

lacen is that you? you arent depressed. haha nah. add me on msn man [email protected] we gots some talking to do. uhhh im off topic.. sorry bura?
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Posted 09 November 2005 - 03:59 PM

"suicide isnt unthinkable...evryone will think of it sometym in there lyph...therefore writing 'suicide' the cause of death is acceptable as a cause"- from "Death Note"
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Posted 09 November 2005 - 06:36 PM

^It's "everyone", "sometime", "their", and "life". Please try to be more mindful of your spelling, it helps the rest of us to more easily understand what you're trying to say.

Depression is a natural part of life, and suicide is a common thought to cross people's minds. By being depressed or feeling like killing yourself, it doesn't mean that you are unhealthy or that "something is wrong with you". However, if it is a constant thing, and you cannot find any kind of satisfaction or happiness in your life, and you feel that it is interfering with your daily functioning, then that is NOT healthy. If that is the case, then I suggest you seek some kind of professional help. But you need to WANT to feel better and happy. Everyone deserves at least that. You owe it to yourself and the people who care about you.
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Posted 13 November 2005 - 03:14 AM

sorry...i am esl...(english second language)ill try to be careful...and dont try to kill yourself becaused your depressed evryone...
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Posted 20 November 2005 - 05:29 PM

^well said but i know u can speak english correctly...anyways, suicide shouldn't be done, even as a last resort... everyone has something to live for. if we were meant to commit suicide we wouldn't exist
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Posted 15 December 2005 - 09:07 PM

ugh... i hate depressed people... they should just getover their problems but i cant talk im sort of emotional too.. so bleh..... but yea... i know exactly how most feel if any need to talk to me ill be on msn most the time
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i can mostly deal with love sort of depression but yea... thats basically where all depression comes up...but any way i can help you as much as possible from the things i have known and felt...some of the most helpful people are the ones that have gone through the pain.... ive gone through alot of pain and considered suicide once but i found my cure in love...which is odd... ill prolly turn suicidal if any thing happens because i care for the person im going out with alot... any way yea.... i can help as much as i can i cant promise you that ill fix the pain your in...
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Posted 05 February 2006 - 04:12 PM

Well, as from the Shonen and Lacer forums, I'm always willing to lend a hand when it comes to depression.

Lacen, if there's one thing I've learnt from my severe bouts of depression is that, other than getting a mild anti-depressent, if things are as bad as you think they are, don't be afraid to seek help, both from your peers and profesional.

During September of last year, I was put onto Zoloft, which din't cure everything, but it made me rational so that I wasn't instantly happy, but it helped clear up some of my circular thinking.

Also, something else you might want to try is everytime you breakdown and cry, try to accept the feeling of your sould being torn in two, and try and garnish some plesure from it. That's what I did and It's worked well for me. So that even when I'm depressed, I've something to look forward to. But that's what's worked for me. Not sure if it'll work for you.

If all else fails, you could always become a sterotypical Emo kid.
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Posted 15 February 2006 - 10:59 PM

OMg, I read in a magazine, that this 13 yo boy was given depression like zoloft.. and suicide a weeks later... how scary.. :blink:
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Posted 22 February 2006 - 07:04 PM

Yeah, well, Zoloft doesn't really make you chirpy chirpy happy, it's just ment to make you less emotional, so you can (Hopefully) sourt out your life. It shouldn't have been perscribed without regular counceling too.

But then again, don't trust everything you read in a magazine or a paper, as most of the time, it's to make a good story.
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Posted 22 February 2006 - 07:39 PM

ooh, yeah good point there. But, depression is so scary...
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Posted 16 March 2006 - 07:01 PM

Actually, depending on what the person had, they shouldn't have been taking Zoloft. Me, for example, I'm bi-polar. If I take Prozac, I go ballistic.
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Posted 16 March 2006 - 07:52 PM

View Postviper2681, on Mar 16 2006, 07:01 PM, said:

Actually, depending on what the person had, they shouldn't have been taking Zoloft. Me, for example, I'm bi-polar. If I take Prozac, I go ballistic.




*blinks................................... :blink: ..................................blinks*
Well I have no idea about depression or stuff like that.. :( hmm... so are you saying that there's different types of depression and so therefore different types of medicines to suit the types of depression? :huh:
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Posted 16 March 2006 - 08:41 PM

Exactly. There's normal depression, where the person is not motivated to do anything and may consider suicide as the only way out, then there's manic depression, also known as Bipolar Disorder, where the person may show signs of normal depression one minute, then act out their emotions the next. Many criminals are bipolar.
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Posted 17 March 2006 - 12:05 AM

View Postviper2681, on Mar 16 2006, 08:41 PM, said:

Exactly. There's normal depression, where the person is not motivated to do anything and may consider suicide as the only way out, then there's manic depression, also known as Bipolar Disorder, where the person may show signs of normal depression one minute, then act out their emotions the next. Many criminals are bipolar.


w0w.. okay after hearing that... my hairs on the back of my neck stood.. :blink: I dunno why... :huh: I think I know this girl who probably have that "Bipolar Disorder".. she's soo scary.. :(
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Posted 26 March 2006 - 01:20 PM

woot. I'm just normal depressed. And here I was, thinking that bi-polar ment dressing up like a Polar bear and having sex with men and women...
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Posted 31 March 2006 - 09:53 PM

those who choose death over life r worthless beings. life isnt a game, u got one chance, one life, one oppurtunity. dont mess it up. if u did already its never too late to change for the better. dont ever consider suicide as an option. depression sometimes leads to suicidal thoughts. if ur depressed dont worry, all u have to do is find a friend that will help u through it. ur life can help change this world. dont forget that. if u wanna suicide i have pity for u. u r too scared to face the world and just wanna take the easy way out. taking life as it comes at u makes u a stronger person. the stronger u r the better ur life will b. SUICIDE IS FOR THE WEAK. SUICIDE IS FOR WORTHLESS WORMS. and u guyz with depression problems just dont worry and find a friend to help u get through it ok.
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Posted 01 April 2006 - 03:47 AM

This thread is to let people know that they have someone to talk to. ^^;;; The calling people worthless worms is a bit much but I agree with the main philosophy that you have. Sometimes family isn't enough. Friends can mean alot during a time like this. Sometimes it isn't viewed as the easy way out though. Some people view it as the onloy way out. But as you said, friends can help out. Sometimes it is hard to find a friend that understands you enough to do any good but they are out there.
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Posted 03 April 2006 - 04:08 PM

Well, I'm not feeling Suicidal or depressed, but I am feeling rather concened about where I'm going to live now. My Brother wants me out by Easter. And I've only started looking a fey days ago. I'm kinda worried that I'll not have a place to live by the time I'm ment to be out, and therefore become a hobo.
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Posted 19 April 2006 - 10:23 PM

Viper, I'm not sure I can completely agree with your "many criminals are bipolar" statement. That's on-par with saying "many criminals are men". I just wanted to make it clear that being bipolar does not make someone a criminal.

And as far as Zoloft-suicide boy, it's not just about different types of depression. Every person is different. While one medication or treatment may work for one person, it may not work for someone else (even have the opposite effect) with the same "disorder". It has been proven that anti-depressants can actually make depression in teenagers and certain other individuals worse. Aside from that, there are also other serious medical side-effects that could accompany any kind of medication. Each person's body reacts differently to foreign chemicals, and medications are developed on the basis of it's effectiveness on the general population. Just a few important things to keep in mind.

Az, I hope you can find a place to stay. Maybe a friend or other relative? At least temporarily until you can get another more permanent place.

As for Zetsumei, I'm not entirely sure you see the whole picture. "Don't worry, just find a friend to help you through" isn't necessarily helpful when you're depressed. While people get depressed for various reasons and friends can help, it's not always easy to just find someone to "help you". It starts with one's self, how willing they are to try and improve their outlook on life, and thus their life itself. Suicide is for the weak? There are things that happen that some can see as worse than dying. "Suicide is for worthless worms"? That's not very encouraging. If you're contemplating suicide, chances are you're depressed, and you feel worthless as it is. You don't help by confirming that.
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Posted 30 April 2006 - 05:05 PM

Yep, acctually found a place to stay, so all is good.
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Posted 19 October 2006 - 10:51 AM

That's good Az, hooray ^_^

Suicide, not pretty thing to friends and family. It's taking the life given to you and showing everyone that life can't mean anything if something bad happens. It may sound belittling but it takes courage to go through life and suicide is a cowardly way of ending everything you, family, and friends worked so hard to build within. Events around life can lead to suicide and depression and although some people can't let it go, others do let it go and, I guess you could say, be free.

When one goes through that thought of killing oneself, they have to ask themselves who would miss them, how the people closest will react, is everything they worked so hard for be gone or expand, things like that. Thinking that "the world would be better off without me," isn't a really plausible reason why you should take your own life. Someone will always miss you and can feel guilty for not intervening before anything tragic happens.

If you're uncomfortable talking to family, talk to friends, that's why they are there. They wouldn't be your friends if you knew they would make fun of you for telling your troubles. Though sometimes they may have unorthodox ways of helping a person deal with it--i.e. sarcasm, teasing--sometimes it may help because it could be their way of cheering you up.

If your parents or anyone says that you need help but you think they're only making fun of you, don't think that. Seeing a counselor is good, especially in cases when you don't want to hurt your friends or family by telling them of your depression/suicidal thoughts or events that could've shaken the mind and body.
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Posted 13 August 2008 - 04:35 AM

It's been a few years but it seems like your old friend Lacen overcame whatever was thrown at him. Nowadays I spend my time doing my best to help others now that my heart and mind is open and clear. I didn't have to rely on medication or crap like that. Just had to get thrown down in a hell hole, see what being homeless and betrayed by most of my friends and family at the time was like and work my way back up from there. Most of you didn't understand what happened to me or what I was going through back then. I never really explained did I? Well, let us just say that I overcame what little Emo punks couldn't even hope to overcome since they just give up before they even try anyway. I no longer let other people go around and fuck with my life or the lives of others. People like that, those who find happiness in the unhappiness of others don't deserve anything good in life. I stand up for the innocent who cannot stand up for themselves. A lot has changed. I hope you're proud of me, Everyone. Take care, always.=]
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